Because of issues with my pregnancy I have had to be moved to the hospital to be on bed rest. In my hospital room there is a quote that says, " You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." This pregnancy is most definitely the hardest thing I have ever had to endure so far. However, I keep thinking about how much healing has been happening in my life since the pain and toil started. What most sticks out to me this year is a renewed faith in family. Unfortunately, family hasn't always felt like a safe place to me because of choices that have been made. My family has gone through a lot of pain and heartache. Now I know that everyone has issues in their family and that is just part of life. However, because of what has happened ( I won't go into details) I found myself jaded and nervous to have a family of my own. Through our journey with Kai (please read the ABOUT section for more info) our little family has become bonded in a very special way even before our little guy has been born. I have found a huge amount of safety in my family even though we are going through a difficult and sometimes painful situation. My immediate and extended family has responded to all of this with such love and support. It has been extremely humbling to witness.
I know that the family really is such a central part of the gospel. I didn't always have a testimony of this but now I am gaining one every time I get a kind text, an uplifting quote, a phone call or a special surprise visit from my family members. My testimony of family is growing brighter and brighter each day. I am so grateful for everything they have done for Rory, Kai and me.
My goal for next year is to now exercise that testimony by being more present with my family. I want to really gain a deep, gospel centered understanding of family so that I can be on the frontlines of the war against family and know EXACTLY what I'm fighting for. That will be my theme for next year and I am so excited to learn all that heavenly father wishes me to learn.
I would love to hear what your theme for 2015 is and how you came to choose that theme. Please share below 😊
Happy New Year's everyone!