A common practice for new years is to pick a theme for the year. Last year I chose the word HEALING. I figured it would be a safe theme because it brings about warm and fuzzy feelings. Boy was I mistaken. This has been one of the hardest most painful years of my life. What I didn't consider was the pain I would need to experience in order to be healed. It's when you want to experience healing in your life that your demons come out to play. Even though it has been difficult, I have learned so much about my strength with the Lord at my side.
Because of issues with my pregnancy I have had to be moved to the hospital to be on bed rest. In my hospital room there is a quote that says, " You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." This pregnancy is most definitely the hardest thing I have ever had to endure so far. However, I keep thinking about how much healing has been happening in my life since the pain and toil started. What most sticks out to me this year is a renewed faith in family. Unfortunately, family hasn't always felt like a safe place to me because of choices that have been made. My family has gone through a lot of pain and heartache. Now I know that everyone has issues in their family and that is just part of life. However, because of what has happened ( I won't go into details) I found myself jaded and nervous to have a family of my own. Through our journey with Kai (please read the ABOUT section for more info) our little family has become bonded in a very special way even before our little guy has been born. I have found a huge amount of safety in my family even though we are going through a difficult and sometimes painful situation. My immediate and extended family has responded to all of this with such love and support. It has been extremely humbling to witness.
I know that the family really is such a central part of the gospel. I didn't always have a testimony of this but now I am gaining one every time I get a kind text, an uplifting quote, a phone call or a special surprise visit from my family members. My testimony of family is growing brighter and brighter each day. I am so grateful for everything they have done for Rory, Kai and me.
My goal for next year is to now exercise that testimony by being more present with my family. I want to really gain a deep, gospel centered understanding of family so that I can be on the frontlines of the war against family and know EXACTLY what I'm fighting for. That will be my theme for next year and I am so excited to learn all that heavenly father wishes me to learn.
I would love to hear what your theme for 2015 is and how you came to choose that theme. Please share below 😊
Happy New Year's everyone!
Because of issues with my pregnancy I have had to be moved to the hospital to be on bed rest. In my hospital room there is a quote that says, " You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." This pregnancy is most definitely the hardest thing I have ever had to endure so far. However, I keep thinking about how much healing has been happening in my life since the pain and toil started. What most sticks out to me this year is a renewed faith in family. Unfortunately, family hasn't always felt like a safe place to me because of choices that have been made. My family has gone through a lot of pain and heartache. Now I know that everyone has issues in their family and that is just part of life. However, because of what has happened ( I won't go into details) I found myself jaded and nervous to have a family of my own. Through our journey with Kai (please read the ABOUT section for more info) our little family has become bonded in a very special way even before our little guy has been born. I have found a huge amount of safety in my family even though we are going through a difficult and sometimes painful situation. My immediate and extended family has responded to all of this with such love and support. It has been extremely humbling to witness.
I know that the family really is such a central part of the gospel. I didn't always have a testimony of this but now I am gaining one every time I get a kind text, an uplifting quote, a phone call or a special surprise visit from my family members. My testimony of family is growing brighter and brighter each day. I am so grateful for everything they have done for Rory, Kai and me.
My goal for next year is to now exercise that testimony by being more present with my family. I want to really gain a deep, gospel centered understanding of family so that I can be on the frontlines of the war against family and know EXACTLY what I'm fighting for. That will be my theme for next year and I am so excited to learn all that heavenly father wishes me to learn.
I would love to hear what your theme for 2015 is and how you came to choose that theme. Please share below 😊
Happy New Year's everyone!